Can't
get it out of my head. I see it when I close my eyes to try and
sleep. I see it when I look at a blue sky. I see it when people are
talking to me. I don't hear them.
It's
only been 10 days and I've replayed it a thousand times.
Down he
went, beyond a distant tree line. He would come back up. Yes! Yes, he
would come back up. He's okay. He is. He's okay.
Then the
smoke.
I
shouted. No. Screamed. No. No. No. No. No. I sank to my knees. Cried.
Bawled like a baby
The
others didn't see it. Their back was turned to it. They wondered why
I cried.
I cried
for the best friend I had ever had. A friend I knew better than
anyone knew him outside his family. I cried for the man who I shared
that wonderful machine with. The machine he loved. Said it had
changed his life. Said he had never dreamed he would do what the
machine had let him do. He made his choice and knew the risks.
Accepted them.
I hardly knew him when we decided to buy it. Violated every rule in the book. No agreement. No contract. No nothing but a hand shake.
And for
fourteen years we worked on it, tinkered with it, fixed it, improved
it, caressed it, displayed it to thousands, flew it with untold
relish.
And all
those years, never a cross word passed between us. Not a single
argument.
My
friend. My friend.
George
“Bud” Myers.
I
chose the skies
That
few have known
To
follow where
The
winds have blown.
To
battle storms
That
none have seen
To
find seas of gold
And
lands still green.
And
if some day
I
don't return
Don't
cry for me
Don't
be concerned
For
high above
The
clouds will sing
For
a world I loved
And
silent wings.
The
Choice
by
Geoffrey H. Tyler
Well put dad. I think you said it best Friday night. You said, "There's a hole in the hanger floor over there where there used to be an airplane you loved. But there is there is a hole in your heart where there used to be the man you loved." Your words honor him. It was a privilege to know him.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful, heart-wrenching tribute. Your words come from a deep place I can, at best, only begin to fathom, and the words I might add ring hollow. But if, in a lonely room, or field, or forest, I remain very quiet and pay close attention, straining my ear, listening for even one whimper from those silent wings, I swear to God I can hear those clouds.
ReplyDeleteVery heartfelt and emotional post.
ReplyDeletePlease accept our condolences for your loss.
Very heartfelt and emotional post. Please accept my condolences for your loss.
ReplyDeleteAlan, I'm so very, very sorry.
ReplyDeleteRalph Hood mentioned the mishap over on AvSig; didn't know about your relationship with Bud.
This thing we do with airplanes means that we play with Fate for high stakes more often than most. The joys are great; so are the sorrows.
As soon as I can, I'll turn West and raise a glass to Bud Myers. I know many others are doing the same thing.
Sincerely,
Frank
Here's a news report about this:
ReplyDeletehttp://whnt.com/2012/09/21/moontown-crash-victim-remembered/
Quite a fellow and quite a loss.
Keep your chin up Captain. My condolences.
ReplyDeleteMy sincerest condolences. May heaven always be filled with clear skies and the wind at his back.
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you, Alan and to 'Bud's' family. Both are in my prayers this week. Flyers know the risks, and joyfully accept them with as much professional skill and caution as they can muster. And I know tha this does not make your personal loss any easier. I'm glad that you shared this with your readers and yes, it still hurts all of us. Best wishes, - Craig
ReplyDeleteAlan, my heart and prayers and with you and with Bud's family this week. With some losses, only time can begin the healing process. Take some time and be good to yourself and to Bud's family. Best wishes, -Craig
ReplyDeleteWas working in the hangar tonight. just like any other night. Kept expecting to see George next door, or here the music. Or have him drop in for a chat. Empty.
ReplyDeleteStill think about Keavy the same way, just empty.
We've lost too many.
Was working in the hangar tonight. just like any other night. Kept expecting to see George next door, or here the music. Or have him drop in for a chat. Empty.
ReplyDeleteStill think about Keavy the same way, just empty.
We've lost too many.
Just want you to know that I cried also when I heard the news. I did not know Bud....but I do know you, and the pain is you feel also affects all of us who care so much about you. Hang in there old friend, and know in your heart, that we really do care. I am sure some day when the pain gets somewhat less, you will write more about Bud so we all can remember him as you do. Let me know if I can help out someway.
ReplyDeleteGeorge "Bud" Myers lived a long and full life. Sadly, the same cannot be said of the 17 year-old student pilot Chris Smith who died in the same accident.
ReplyDeleteSo saddened by this story tonight. My heartfelt condolences to and best wishes for all the family, friends, and aviation-lovers like me who feel your deep pain at this loss.
ReplyDeleteMy condolences to Bud's family and to you Alan. Your tribute has touched me. I know you will miss him much.
ReplyDeleteJudy
"... the best friend I had ever had."
ReplyDeleteDad I'm sorry. I didn't fully understand.
I do now.
Very sorry for your loss, Alan. Yes, we've lost too many.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful, truly heart-wrenching tribute to your amazing friend, Alan. Thank you so much for sharing this. I was there on Saturday and still shaking my head at the loss. I'm so sorry you have to miss him so much, but it speaks so much about him that you do.
ReplyDeleteMr Cockrell, Alan - I am nowhere near as eloquent as you or your other followers and friends, but I too feel compelled to offer my condolences to you and all who knew of George....
ReplyDeleteWith fondest regards
Dave from the UK
The whole aviation community mourns with you, Alan. Sounds like Bud was a fantastic man and a fantastic pilot. So sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry Alan...Keep your chin up... Whick
ReplyDeleteAlan, I am very sorry for your loss. You have my sincere condolences and prayers. Losing a great friend brought close throught the bond of a shared passion of machine and sky must be tough.
ReplyDeleteKeep writing. You do it well.